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gonna be here in a few hours. so excited.

Fri, 17 May 2013 19:06:22 -0400

gonna be here in a few hours. so excited.

Audio

Fri, 17 May 2013 04:14:00 -0400

"Some people underestimate how erotic it is to be understood."

Fri, 17 May 2013 02:00:56 -0400

“Some people underestimate how erotic it is to be understood.”

- Mary Rakow

Photo

Fri, 17 May 2013 00:09:43 -0400

Roses, Robert Mapplethorpe, 1988

Thu, 16 May 2013 19:46:25 -0400

Roses, Robert Mapplethorpe, 1988

"You mean the generation that paid three times as much for college to enter a job market with triple..."

Thu, 16 May 2013 18:33:51 -0400

“You mean the generation that paid three times as much for college to enter a job market with triple the unemployment isn’t interested in purchasing the assets of the generation who just blew an enormous housing bubble and kept it from popping through quantitative easing and out-and-out federal support? Curious.”

- When comments are better than the article, Atlantic edition (“The Cheapest Generation: Why Millennials aren’t buying cars or houses, and what that means for the economy”)

natgeofound: Spectators gather around a dying finback whale in...

Thu, 16 May 2013 00:37:46 -0400

natgeofound:

Spectators gather around a dying finback whale in Provincetown, Massachusetts, August 1962.
Photograph by Dean Conger, National Geographic

remash: barn + stable transformation | detail ~ galletti &...

Thu, 16 May 2013 00:35:48 -0400

remash:

barn + stable transformation | detail ~ galletti & matter

“butterfly”, 1939

Thu, 16 May 2013 00:23:53 -0400

“butterfly”, 1939

Alpine pink(Dianthus alpinus) forms a low cushion or bun of...

Tue, 14 May 2013 14:20:03 -0400

Alpine pink(Dianthus alpinus) forms a low cushion or bun of bright green grassy leaves. The wheel-shaped flowers are unusually large, resting just above the leaves in late spring, in shades of soft to deep pink or salmon.

“Our desire is not that others might be relieved while you are hard pressed, but that there might...

Tue, 14 May 2013 13:13:01 -0400

“Our desire is not that others might be relieved while you are hard pressed, but that there might be equality. At the present time your plenty will supply what they need, so that in turn their plenty will supply what you need. Then there will be equality, as it is written: ‘He who gathered much did not have too much, and he who gathered little did not have too little.’”

— 2 Corinthians 8:13-15 (New International Version 1984)

LeCorbusier & C. Perriand, B306 Chaise-Lounge, 1928 Tubular...

Tue, 14 May 2013 13:10:24 -0400

LeCorbusier & C. Perriand, B306 Chaise-Lounge, 1928

Tubular steel, cowhide

historical-nonfiction: People enjoying a picnic in the middle...

Tue, 14 May 2013 01:34:19 -0400

historical-nonfiction:

People enjoying a picnic in the middle of a highway during the 1973 oil crisis.

“I have never really understood exactly what a ‘liberal’ is, since I have heard ‘liberals’ express...

Mon, 13 May 2013 14:49:16 -0400

“I have never really understood exactly what a ‘liberal’ is, since I have heard ‘liberals’ express every conceivable opinion on every conceivable subject. As far as I can tell, you have the extreme right, who are fascist, racist capitalist dogs like Ronald Reagan, who come right out and let you know where they’re from. And on the opposite end, you have the left, who are supposed to be committed to justice, equality, and human rights. And somewhere between these two points is the liberal. As far as I’m concerned, ‘liberal’ is the most meaningless word in the dictionary. History has shown me that as long as some white middle class people can live high on the hog, take vacations to Europe, send their children to private schools, and the reap the benefits of their white skin privileges, then they are ‘liberals’. But when times get hard and money gets tight, they pull off that liberal mask and you think you’re talking to Adolf Hitler. They feel sorry for the so-called underprivileged just as long as they can maintain their own privileges.”

— Assata Shakur (via diasporicdecay)

Scott Bromley, Apartment

Mon, 13 May 2013 14:09:28 -0400

Scott Bromley, Apartment

Al-Quazwīnī (ca. 1203-1283) The wonders of creation, 16th...

Sun, 12 May 2013 22:34:38 -0400

Al-Quazwīnī (ca. 1203-1283) The wonders of creation, 16th century Florence, Biblioteca Medicea Laurenziana, Ms. Orientali 45, f. 17v This encyclopædia, which contains a lengthy section devoted to cosmography, enjoyed wide circulation in the Islamic world. The compiler referred back to the Greek authors, in particular to Aristotle and Ptolemy. At folio 17v, the configurations of the Sun, Earth and Moon that give rise to eclipses. (via Al-Quazwini, The wonders of creation)

Le tombeau des lutteurs (The tomb of the wrestlers), Rene...

Sun, 12 May 2013 22:34:03 -0400

Le tombeau des lutteurs (The tomb of the wrestlers), Rene Magritte

scienceofeds: Eating Disorder Recovery: Definition of ‘Recovered’ “Being recovered is...

Sun, 12 May 2013 19:44:46 -0400

scienceofeds:

Eating Disorder Recovery: Definition of ‘Recovered’

“Being recovered is when the person can accept his or her natural body size and shape and no longer has a self-destructive relationship with food or exercise. When you are recovered, food and weight take a proper perspective in your life, and what you weigh is not more important than who…

That’s a very body-centric version of eating disorders. I engage in behaviours to regulate my mood; I love my body and think I look great. I have no trouble accepting my size. My ‘destructive’ relationship with food persists because it is a powerful tool to regulate anxiety and because (although I’m better at it) I still suck at recognizing emotional states until it is often too late. What I weighis not important to me.

Can I just give a shout-out to everyone who is more recovered than they were 1,2,10 years ago? Most people I know who are around my age (mid-20’s) and have had eating disorders for 10+ years do not think about ‘recovery’. Whenever I get a question about what I think full recovery is, or whether I’m recovered, or not, I am 97% sure that question is coming from a teenager. It is just not something I find myself or people my age (generally, there are exceptions to everything, and it depends on length of ED and also stage of recovery) thinking about.

I’ve talked about this with a lot of my friends who still engage in behaviours to varying extents. We don’t think about recovery so much, we are focused on living. Grad school, med school, law school, work, families, relationships, etc.. The exceptions to this are people who have gotten sick recently, so the ED is a ‘new’ thing for them, or those who are very sick.

The reality is that an eating disorder (hey, like every other mental disorder) is something many people will have to manage for the rest of their lives. That doesn’t mean you’ll be bingeing/purging every day or once a week, or ever, or restricting til you feel faint. No. I mean, it depends. But the reality is that many people will have to deal with it to some extent. Maybe a desire to restrict or binge/purge when something stressful comes up. Maybe unintended weight loss when you are not focused on eating well.

Management and a focus on stability is the reality for people struggling with personality disorders, schizophrenia, bipolar, severe depression, and severe anxiety disorders. Do people recover from schizophrenia or bipolar? Borderline personality disorder?

There’s absolutely nothing wrong with aiming for a full recovery. Nothing at all. It is great. You should if you want to, especially if you have been sick for a relatively short amount of time.

But I just want to take this time to congratulate everyone who is managing. Everyone who has a job, or goes to school, or is in a relationship. Everyone who is happier now than they were earlier on in the eating disorder. Everyone who doesn’t want to go back to their sickest. That’s certainly not everyone who is following me, and that’s okay, too. I spent many years being ambivalent about recovery (despite never being in denial originally and seeking help, by myself, <1 year of getting sick, and being weight restored for a while).

Full recovery is awesome. But so is being less sick than the sickest you’ve been. So is going back to school if your eating disorder prevented you from it for years, or getting your first job since getting sick, or being stable enough to be in a relationship.

This message is to all the folks who continue fighting their eating disorder, who might not be aiming for full recovery (and who might be wondering what the fuck that even means anymore), but who are just focused on living in the present. This is for those of us who are older, who’ve had eating disorders for a decade (fuck) or more.

Yeah, I still restrict sometimes, because it reduces my anxiety. Yeah I sometimes binge and purge. Yeah, it is kinda annoying. But I love that I love my body. I love that I’m no longer plagued with this inability to leave the house because I feel disgusting. Instead, I feel sexy. I love that I can go out and eat without being too anxious. I love that I’m in a stable, loving, long-term open relationship with an amazing person for over 3.5 years. I love that I have a job, and that I was able to finish undergrad, and my MSc, and am continuing with more education.

Yeah, I’m not fully recovered. It is not the end of the world. Most people with mental health issues like schizophrenia and bipolar are aiming for management and stability, and there’s nothing wrong with that either.

If you are aiming for full recovery, go for it. If you are aiming for stability, go for it. I’m aiming for some balance between extremes of bulimia and extremes of anorexia. Kinda. Honestly, I’m focused on setting up my freelance editing business and tutoring. I’m focused on expanding the blog. I know a lot of people in my position. I just wanna say that this place deserves recognition and a congratulations sticker, too.

Exactly my thoughts at 6+ years of this.

themineralogist: “Iron-Rose” Hematite from Switzerland

Sun, 12 May 2013 19:39:57 -0400

themineralogist:

“Iron-Rose” Hematite from Switzerland

Tommy Perse and Anne Marie Perse with Studio 80, Maxfields,...

Sun, 12 May 2013 19:38:49 -0400

Tommy Perse and Anne Marie Perse with Studio 80, Maxfields, Circa 1982